depression over 40

hmmmm.... this is going to be a rather blunt and honest blog-- about goals, aspirations, losing them in the reality of teenagers, failed marriages and the fog hauling in dementia to cover our elders.
Through living through life we tend to get tired, drink too much wine, and fail to 'get up and go' to finish our life dreams..... they seem like the lighthouse on the far away shore over the rough water and almost hidden through the dense fog of life.
I, like many of you, have struggled with the fog days and while the struggle is hard and to admit the weakening of our spirits it is a struggle that is indeed even more important as we do fade.
Depression- what an ugly word- and I am not talking about the lack of money currently in circulation in the world.
Finally, after years of not even realizing I had indeed fallen down a deep well of depression, "it is just stress, it is meno-pause, it is stress' I finally had to realize the life I was living was indeed in a fog.
Going home after work just to go to bed-lying on the couch watching more TMZ and another CSI re-run, every excuse not to workout, go-out, lots of time to run and get more wine and a movie to hibernate in the safe confines of my basement.....
Ladies, this is not living
Hiding from work, responsibilities-- not interested in your former loves of loves- what ever hobby (or man) that may be......
If you are finding the season, the weather, the financial market, your marriage or singledom is somehow just not working- please do not be as stubborn as I was- go to the doctor and he has the best happy pills in the world!
Yahoo-- I see some painting, writing, finally getting those taxes done (actually dealing with some life issues that need to be dealt with and not piled under the already very lumpy rug).
Happy pills are for me!